Thursday, October 11, 2007

Welcoming You

The time was right. We had spent months discussing when and how we would make ourselves ready to receive you. After returning from Africa and giving myself time to rest and heal from that beautiful and soul rending journey, your father and I cleansed our minds and bodies with a special diet and self-care program intended to aid in fertility. I loathed the spiritless mathematics of tracking my monthly cycle with daily measurements of temperature and fluid, but attempted to infuse the possibility of you into this monotonous information gathering. After only a few weeks of paying closer attention to my bodies signs I recognized the subtle change in my cycle and your father and I cleared a space in our hearts and minds and bodies to invite you to join us. On a small altar we placed a few things of meaning to us: a soft warm shawl, a small baby toy, a single candle, and a couple of stones. We burned some sage to cleanse our bed and lifted up a prayer to invite your sweet soul to find us…

Several hours later in the early morning hours a vivid dream came over me…

Your father and I were guests at a large celebration in an enormous and beautiful mansion. The host suggested that we step outside the ballroom to have a look at the stars. On the balcony, just the two of us in the balmy night air, we were stunned to see stars and planets like we had never seen on this earth before hanging in the sky. They were huge and brilliant and colorful! As we took in the awe-inspiring sight a gentle rain began to fall. Filled with wonder and joy we began dancing around the balcony. I started to spin around and around and suddenly felt an intense energy spiral down through my body with so much power that I began to lift off the ground. It was wonderful and frightening and I called out to your father to grab my hand to hold me to the earth. I felt his strong, warm hands anchor me even as the energy continued spinning through my body. I awoke to find that I had actually called for him out loud and he was there holding me. For several moments I was still aware of the spiral force within my body…and intuitively I knew…you had arrived.

It wasn’t until 2 weeks later at the family cabin, a special place for us, that technology confirmed what my spirit already knew…I am pregnant with you. What an honor. We welcome you great soul. Thank you for choosing us. I can’t wait to meet you face to face in March. In the meantime I will enjoy this intimacy we share and continue clearing space for you in my heart, mind, body, and home.


Blogger Heidi Renee said...

Let the angels rejoice - how beautiful! To have such knowledge and beauty surrounding a conception is glorious. After 9 years of infertility I can say we were oh so grateful, but the magic was definitely lacking. This child you carry is blessed indeed. Congratulations!

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Blogger Kristin said...

Oh, I'm so, so happy for you! What an amazing experience of conception, too - the ritual, the dream, the knowing. And March means you're through the first trimester, right? I hope you're feeling okay, and enjoying the process. Many blessings on this pregnancy, and this baby, and you and your husband!

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Blogger anj said...

I've come back to this post, this story, this experience, again and again and again. There are no words that can describe how it impacts. The closest I can come is hope - it gives me hope.

1:09 AM  
Blogger Deb said...

Congratulations!! What a gift this post will be to your child one day.

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Anonymous Tom Smith said...


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Anonymous Mona said...

I had been thinking today how busy I've been, how I had barely time to say "Hello/Goodbye" to you - and then I remembered your blog! Glad I did. You probably are already doing this - note how your baby behaves NOW, when you AND Baby sleep NOW, what kinds of things you're eating NOW, when Baby is active NOW, and what Baby responds to NOW. I guarantee you will be filled with wonder at how many of the same behaviors continue once that dear Little Soul shows her face to the world in March. So exciting!

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